It is Day 9.
I have already missed three days, for which I am beating myself about the head.
This day looked full from the time my feet hit the floor. I couldn't see a way to meet all my requirements. Frustration about being behind in more than one part of my lifemounted. In my quiet time this morning, I said to God, “I GIVE UP!”
He said, “Okay. Good,” but I was busy ranting.
I said, “I can’t do this anymore!”
He said, “Okay. I knew that,” but I was busy ranting.
I said, “What is it You want me to do??”
He said, “Give up,” which stopped my ranting. I sat quietly. I put in a new spiritual teaching CD I have. I listened. I read my devotional and listened.
And I am here to make the declaration that it is my dominant intent to give up.
This will take more than one blog post to dissect. I hope you will stick with me.
A few words sent me over the edge…
Come to me and I will give you rest—all of you who work so hard beneath a heavy yoke. Wear my yoke—for it fits perfectly—and let me teach you; for I am gentle and humble, and you shall find rest for your souls (Matthew 11:28)
So I just give up….
I give up attempting to control the uncontrollable. If numerous things don’t rush into your head, you must live in a universe parallel to mine.
For the most part, that’s everyone and everything who isn’t me. I can’t control any of it. I can’t control any of it. I can’t control any of it…
I give up struggling so much. There is no point in rowing upstream.
Jesus said, “The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy, but I come that they might have life and have it in abundance” (John 10.10)
Abundance is downstream. Well-being is downstream.
At the very least, I could sit sideways…but rowing upstream is futile and steals my energy. Instead, I fuss and fume and worry and get myself all balled up. Then I cry or yell or both.
I give up.
It isn’t a way to live. It isn’t what was intended for any of us.
I give up.
How about you? Either of these a challenge for you? Do you need to give up too?
I have a couple more tasks and am going to focus on these two areas for a couple hours.
Maybe we will disucss more before I sleep.
Talk to you later,
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Beth Painter is, among many other things, a writer and motivational speaker. You can follow her on Facebook on the “Think Big focus small” page.
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